Hey hey! I haven’t posted on here in a while, and I wanted to give you guys something to reflect a little of what the Lord’s been doing during my time in CGA. As I was praying about blog ides, I felt the Lord asking me to share something I wrote a few weeks back.
Since I moved here, I’ve been working at a daycare and I absolutely love it!! I work mainly in a pre-k classroom but also cover lunch breaks for the ones and two year old teachers during nap time. I talk to the Lord a lot during nap time lol, because most of the time there isn’t much for me to do for two hours of silence and sleeping children. (That is, if they actually fall asleep lol.) I’ve also come to realize how much the Lord intentionally speaks to me through children because of my love for them, which I find so sweet.
If you’ve ever worked at a daycare before, you would know that the first few weeks for babies that haven’t been in care before are the worst. A few weeks ago, we had a new child in the ones room; all he did for the first couple weeks was cry and say “mama.” Even though it felt like my ears were bleeding, I was so heartbroken for him, because I could see all he was feeling. I held him throughout all of nap time as he continued to cry, and eventually fall asleep. As I held him, I wrote out the words I was silently speaking over him- and then I realized the Father was speaking the same words over me.
I wasn’t going to share this at first, but I came to realize that there was a good chance He wanted to speak this over more people than just me. So I pray the Father would use these words to speak to you, that you would consider and see the possibility of new depths and healing with Him.
“Oh child,
What I would do to keep you safe.
What I would do for you to know that you are safe.
I would hold you, for two hours straight. I would hold you endlessly, actually.
I would hold you until my legs go numb, and my back aches. And I would hold you tight.
I would drop everything to hold you in your mess. I would hold you as you squirm and cry out with an ear piercing scream, and get snot all over me. I would not look at you as a burden, but as a beloved child in need.
I would hold you in your tears and fears. I would hold you in the confusion and misunderstanding.
I would pat you on your back, until you fell asleep. And I would continue to hold you if you didn’t.
I would hold you until you went back to deep breaths, and your body returned to quiet rest.
I would hold you until you became content in my arms.
I would hold you until you trusted me to keep you safe.
I would hold you until you knew you were safe.
I would hold you forever, and not let go.
Oh child, what I would do for you to know that you are safe, and safer than you think.
Oh child, one day you will know that you are safe, safer than you think. One day you will know that these arms will always hold you and bring protection. One day you will trust me to keep you safe.”
Love,
Andi
